Food Monster

I did okay while taking the boys to the cities so one could have tubes put in. Eating wise I did okay didn't get much exercise in except for walking around the hospital. I wanted to swim but couldn't leave the boys by themselves so the older boy and I went swimming while the other one sat in the stroller watching everyone.

The next day I decided to get a smoothie at MOA and walk around there for awhile. Well needless to say I did get my smoothie but also got a cinnabun cinnamon roll with extra frosting. I didn't eat much of it and we went to subway for lunch. But I got a pop and drank 1/2 of it and left it the rest at Subway was going to bring it with me to keep me awake for the drive home. Mcdonald's was for supper

Well it only went down hill from there. I at the rest of the cinnamon roll and a few other things. The only good thing I did was go for a walk. Again I had McDonald's and Arbys. Yep didn't do so great this day.

Saturday rolls around again had some McDonald's and Pizza was for supper. Only good thing I did was go for a walk and we also walked around at a wood carvers festival.

Sunday we had BBQ and left overs for supper. Yep only good thing to come out of this day was a cleaner house and a walk.

I actually felt crappy and could feel the water weight come one. I felt my hands get bigger. Need less to say I felt really bad and didn't want to feel this way again. So today I hit the ground running so to speak. I had a smoothie for breakfast, a sandwich with carrots and cherries for lunch, and supper is spaghetti with home made sauce. I still have some calories to eat up but in my greatest hope to use them right.

I fell off the wagon and hit hard and fast. I'm glad that I fell so hard and fast that I could literately feel it affect me and know thats not what I want. I am faced with many more challenging things ahead most of which I don't know what they are. But I will try with the best of intentions to beat it and not go down the this path again.

I am going to call this thing in me the food monster and I am going to beat this food monster so it only wants good healthy stuff and in a good size.  I know I can beat it and going to get it done. I don't want to feel like this again. I can't because I wont get to see my kids grow up and I wont get to play with them the way I want to. It was an eye opener thats for sure and now that I have seen what going back the other way can do I really don't want to do that.